The victim, who is now in his 50s, looked Paul Godfrey Fenech, the man who raped him as a child, in the eye as he delivered a victim impact statement in Penrith District Court.
"You took my innocence away, Mr Fenech," he said on Friday.
"You sexually assaulted me over a period of hours and many times."
Fenech, 66, pleaded guilty in March to indecent assault of a male, buggery and detaining for advantage after a plea deal was struck with crown prosecutors.
He met the victim through a friend in the 1980s and organised a visit to his place a week later to go horse-riding.
After drinking beer together on the verandah, the boy felt unco-ordinated and woke up on Fenech's bed.
"He was naked. He felt like he was unable to move or speak. The offender was next to him. He was also naked," agreed facts filed with the court say.
Fenech then proceeded to sexually abuse the boy, who at one point asked for a drink of water in an attempt to flee.
"The offender followed the victim and forced him back to the bed. The victim called out and then heard his friends in another room," the agreed facts say.
"While the victim was being sexually assaulted and detained, the offender threatened to cause serious harm to the victim."
Before the boy was picked up by his parents the following day, Fenech again told the young teen to keep quiet.
The victim spoke about the lasting effects the abuse has had on his life and relationships.
"I had to grow up very quickly. This has been like a living hell," he said.
"I'm a loving person but I hate being touched.
"I've not been able to have a proper relationship my entire life, Mr Fenech, because of you."
He said the incident left him devastated.
He's has received counselling as a result and will continue to receive counselling for a long time to come, the court was told.
"I'm going to take back my life. I'm not the victim any more," he said.
"I can only pity you, the pathetic person and monster that you are.
"Death really isn't good enough for someone like yourself, sir."
The victim eventually provided a statement to police in 2020 and Fenech was arrested on February 19 last year.
Judge Michael Allen said the court must take into account Fenech's lack of reoffending during the years since his release from prison in 2006 for a previous conviction and his arrest in February last year.
"That does not excuse nor should it ever excuse the objectively serious conduct that robbed (the victim) of a decent life," he said
"(But) the period of 17 years is unusual because there's simply been no offence."
Fenech's sentence hearing continues.
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